SpiralDragon's Blog

Ever since the war "ended" back in 1990.... I always had the feeling that it never really ended.. that it just changed form..... I always had the feeling that sooner or later Lebanon would plunge back in to civil war... and to be honest.. it looks like we are edging closer to that point once again... what is the problem in Lebanon? well... I do agree that everyone from the outside has screwed us over from east to west... but the truth of the mater is simple... Lebanon is a feudal country... we have warlords as opposed to political figures... these warlords use the excuse of religion and sects even to maintain their hold, power and control ... not to mention wealth...... and strangely enough... the Lebanese people are like sheep... they follow these wolves dressed in shepherds clothing.... they follow them so blindly and they allow their "religious" beliefs (no mater how truncated they are) to get in the way of thinking of what is best for the nation.... that and the...

Irene Bagdassaroff Der Alexanian (26 July 1926) - (23 May 2001) it had not occurred to me last year when i had a total brake down on this day..... it almost slipped my mind this year when i was feeling low and tiered.... until mom pointed out that it is the anniversary of my grandmothers passing away 23 May 2001.... i still remember that day... my granny had fallen ill with cancer and was staying at our place... every day in the morning i would go up to her and kiss her goodbye before i went to work.... she used to respond to me better than most... she would be less difficult around me when i asked her too.. she would eat better, make less of a fuss and make an effort to improve.... however .. on that morning i went up to her to give her my goodbye kiss... and could sense the presence of Death looming around.... i bowed my head and moved on... i could not go near her... at work ... i was out of cellphone reach.... i stayed underground in my office until little bit in the after noon......

well... still getting married on the 15th of June.... but not in Lebanon.... Cyprus is the choice now... because the Lebanese are too pigheaded to have such as thing as civil marriage... my own country.. and i am really disappointed with it.... ah well... i suppose it will take a few more "civil" wars before they start thinking like "civilised" folks should.... though this will be somewhat of a headache for me... again because i am the "proud" holder of a Lebanese passport... well.. it just means getting a visa ain't going to be as easy as on might think... and more paper work... AHHHHHHHHH....... but my love must and should have her rights protected... and that can only be done under civil code rather than Sharia code... actually... i think Cyprus is going to save me allot of family and Friend related headaches... lol... nothing worse than friends and family berating you for not attending wedding... this way we will be in a totally different cou...

like the goddess... a destructive force... a life creating force.... got to love the universe.. a star goes supernova Like tears in the rain,

So simple yet so complex… no mater how you look at it never makes sense yet it makes perfect sense. It is there but not there. Spiral… an anagram to our state of mind. Twisted, bent, perfect, complete… when do we begin? Where do we end? We spiral in and out, looking… searching… and what do we find at the end? Our selves? Or did we find that at the beginning ? Do we ever see the point before it is too late? Before we become one with spiral?

i know i wanted to post something today.... but i forgot about what... go figure